It has been a long week for the ordinary person like me. Much has happened and much of it causes certain pains and destruction in my life. Well, most of them anyway...but not all. Some of them improved my way of thinking...whether it may be bad or good. Nothing matters anyway.
I have searched the back of my mind why I do these things and still I find no answers. This week has been, as a summary, tiring.
I hiked to far away places beyond my recognition just to do some mischief and chaos to my whole existence and cuts and bruises to my physical state. It contributed to much of the stuff in my life these past few days...the late night excutions that mystically vanished for a month and came back this week, for some reason unknown, the unpredictability of my mind and the unstoppable thinking-aloud manners that make me appear crazier than I really am. I have thought about it and I have no regrets. I have done it twice this week...haha...
All this rain made me think of stuff. My mind floats so much these days that I didn't even realize that I have fallen from the topmost flight of stairs to the rough ground below. A few painful seizures will make me remember all things in my mind at the time for a long time.
Trips to uncharted regions made me physically weak for a day. I have never experienced having no sleep, hiking for about 4-5 hours, exercising on the way, not eating then going back to your house just to take all the nonsense from your annoyed mother and then, when you thought you could rest, taking care of your nephew. Nothing can exhaust a person better. All my strenght has been taken away from me today just because of a series of unfortunate events.
I will never regret anything I have done for the last couple of weeks even if they exhaust me this way forever. My decisions are mine to be responsible with. In fact, I will go hiking tomorrow again. I just hope I make it alone.
Maybe nothing else will be better for me. Life's lies, uncertainty and unpredictability has been taking the life force out from me but I won't let it get the best of me.
For now, no sorry for the wicked but my sorry will come on one big strike...only if I am sure i will never do it again. As for now, I will imitate life as it is.
I am tired of all these but I will not surrender to Life itself.
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Fatigue is the weariness caused by too much exertion
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Please wait for me. If you are tired of my crap, then forget me.But I will never be tired of your smile.
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