Analytic Symptom #6: Anger

I just hate it when these things happen. Negative energy is always transferred from another mind to yours if a person in the vicinity becomes angry. Please, for God's sake, i'ts just a game! Its nothing life threathening or anything...but why don't we just enjoy the damned thing! Dammit! That shouting and f*cking curses made me more unstable than the one that the curses are pointed out to. I have been in the receiving end of those words and I know how it felt...And its not a good feeling...Like your whole reputation stands in the thin line between being maintained and being shattered...then being humiliated at the end by a good for nothing player that shouts insults when he's winning and makes stricken comments when he's losing...laki ng ego na hindi na matatangal ang kayabangan...I just makes me so pissed off I want to punch him right in the face...pero sabi ko nga, it's just a game. I can control myself you know! but not for long...I have limits you know?

Just let go of your "I must win" ego because it will do you no good...I did that letting go about a month ago...walang naitulong e. Natalo pa rin kami.

Unti unti nang nawawala interes ko dati sa DotA...kung dati pinag-aaralan ko lahat ng hero, ngaun parang gusto ko na silang isumpa! parang gusto ko na silang I mass destruct...

Exaggerated but true...

Nothing personal but now I realize that I have made a mistake of making my vacation life turn around DotA...OKay...I have made really Good friends because of DotA specially expanding my circle of friends from my classmates only to the "Icon6" barkada. And Im most thankful for my teammates for they made the hardest times of my life seem like a simple game. They listen and thats all I need.

I may never play DotA again if it means that my team and friends become angry at me and my whole barkada...at least it's safer that way.

Bukas RF na lng siguro...

I have learned that lesson that 'anger will never make anything good' a long time ago...I guess since birth. My father has always been the type that will shout on you if you have done something that is against his feelings...I have almost swallowed a whole banana pealing because he made me and my brother eat them because he thought we left them in the sink...cruel yah? Well, we had no choice but to live with the fact that he is my father. He would hurt us every time we don't obey but he's improved now. He doesn't hurt us anymore...well not physically anyway...but he's voice is most of the times 'shouting'...maybe its just him. I guess Its his nature and nobody can change that. I've got to live with it, eh?

Now, I have a phobia on fathers...I hope this goes away...

One single evidence why anger, for me, does not do anything good. I did a long-term damage to me and I hope it doesn't make another damage on my personality...long nor short term.

I know people have limits and can be angry, but (Please!) just be clear the next time you see the other party and explain yourself and let him (or them) explain too. that way, everything will be just fine. No Fight...No struggle right?!

Well, nothing can be more satisfying than having everything cleared up after a fight. Well, I can say I only became trully angry angry once and no one...okay one person only...saw that happen.

I just hope I don't get angry anytime soon...

That will make me age! I hate aging!

Well...at least, I don't have this particular symptom! Haha! A light note...

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Anger is the state of mind where you cannot control yourself and your mind because of sudden emotions directed to something undesirable for you.

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"What's the use of anger anyway?"
-anonymous