Analytic Symptom #8: Stupidity

It has been a crappy day as far as I have seen it. Everything was out of my whole grand plan of a happy day. I planned and expected it to be a day-to-look-forward-to and that made me even more unsatisfied with the way all turned out to be.

okay...let the whole story begin!

I planned to go to UP about a week ago and there turned out to be this KISSS thing that you can attend that will teach you to write HTML/CSS files for my very own website (Which I do need...matagal ko nang kinukulit si pier para sa isang HTML book pero nde daw niya makita so Im stuck with doing nothing anyway). I thought that will help me a lot...in more ways than one! I will learn to do HTML and go to school and see the people I wanted to see for a long time and most of all...uhmm...well...I did not have the chance to do it anyway so...awww...just forget it...

So I asked my mother if I could come to school, and she took the hell out of me...literally... so that she would say "yes". She said all the possible excuses like "mag-aalaga ka ng pamangkin", "wala akong ibibigay na pamasahe sayo" and "aalis kami ni ate mo". She didn't even answer yes to my "Can I go?" question...I sort of woke-up-early-took-a-bath-brushed-my-teeth-put-on-a-get-up-asked-for-fare-and-got-goin'...well, she had no choice (sayang pagod ko). But I did not get out of the house without the her usual sermon about the things I should do. FGS! Its just a day out of my routine! That started my day!

I got out of the house and about 5 minutes out on the streets, It rained. I had to run to reach the nearest vacant space where there were no falling raindrops...andthe worse thing, I'm late...I said I'd meet pier at 6:30 and it already almost 7:00. I rushed and found that pier was not there anymore...or yet...for that matter. I went to UP alone...

It was still raining when I got to Eng'g building in UP...in which case, I was almost soaked in rain water (nasa gilid kasi ako sa unahan ng jeep tapos wala pa tabing un jeep kaya lahat ng ulan sakin pumapatak). I had to run again from AS to Eng'g...

I then found that the cursor tambayan was vacant for some reason. Wala akong ka close na matatanong tungkol sa KISSS na un. I had no choice but to go back to the Eng'g entrance in hopes of meeting someone familiar...And guess what...I saw Pier standing there waiting for...I don't know...me? haha...I will not take the KISSS humiliation alone. We went to the room and I saw Cai, the 4th year one (not my batchmate). At least now I have someone to ask about this seminar or something. We got in perfectly without any trouble (THANK GOD!).

The session was starting already so we sort of made our way into 2 unoccupied PC's. Good thing there were only about 5 people in the room and we were not so disturbing. At this point, I was looking for familiar faces na akala ko nagoorganize din nun event. For some reason, I miss them for a long time that I wanted to see...*ahem*...them (...) more than I wanted to listen to mari. I asked Cai to my friend's whereabouts but she said she don't know. My spirit kind of sank.

Then, with a sudden flash of hope, the other Cai (my batchmate) showed up and gave me a...not a hug but a...punch. Nice welcome! I thought everyone I was expecting is with her but no one followed her except Louis (her BF). At least I got to cahnce to punch her as well.

No offense to Maricon but the whole session bored me. Its not her but me. I learned more to what Pier was doing rather than what Mari was teaching. Then, many other people came and that made me more uninterested because the noise level was rising and I can't make out what mari is saying. At least, I got what she was pointing out and was catching up just fine (thanks to pier). Then, Rowell, the Cursor person that I wanted to see the least, came and told me about my Cursor status, again, the one I wanted to hear the least. That brightened up my day even more! It all ended and I did not see the people I was expecting to see and I did not have the chance to do the things I had to do. Cra$p!

I wanted to look for Cai to say goodbye and tell her something I wanted her to tell the others but she seem to be eating somewhere or something, and she was out of sight. I had no choice but to go because only have until 3 to go back home and I am hungry already.

The rain seemed to mock me all the way...

At least, I had someone to talk to.

I wanted to rest but I cannot, for some reason. I had everything planned out but nothing happened...and the way the day was going was even worse than I thought.

How can I be so stupid and expect more from life. It's just soooooooooooooooooooo ironic and unfair...

AZAR!

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Stupidity is the state in which a person tends to make poor decisions or careless mistakes.

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okay, I'll admit it, ikaw lang talaga ipinunta ko dun.