Analytic Symptom #38: Confusion

It was a tough week.

I thought it was just a basic English class but, Crap!, it wasn't JUST an english class. It was WAY more than that...

I really didn't expect that Miss Ria would check each and every word in that verbatim speech and recognizing and correcting all your errors is a real pain in the behind. It was like hell when we need to correct every "the", "this" and "that" in the file with the correct /th/ sound when we filipinos are used to using the /d/ sound. Then "accuracy" (a-kyu-ra-si) should be pronounced as (a-kyu-ra-si). Another is that "during'' (du-ring) should not be (ju-ring) and its very hard to change all that in the span of just 5 days.

And then theres this "ano'' thing I have when I always keep saying "ano" when Im talking...well reporting, that is. The thing is, when I am outside the class I don't say that damn tagalog word anymore (or maybe I just don't hear me say it). I really need a coach.

But, though I had frequent headaches and occasional migrains, it was a fun week. For one thing I have met many new people, many of which are much much older than me with their own families, and some in my generation (well, that wont make the others that old, you know). A wide variety of people, most with a sense of humor and some being the ones being humored (Kuya Pepe Smith...I can't say nothing more...)

People worth mentioning are Rani - the wave's clown...together with the bunch at the back part of the room, specially Ian and Chris and Michael (Kuya Pepe), they made the whole class laugh more than once...well, everyday may be the right word. My seatmates Joseph, who also play RF, his friend Bryant, the rich kid, Vance and Roni make up the all-boy group (with the exception of the last) and they are the people I jive with...maybe because of my age gap with Rani and Ian and Malurd.

Shuck! It was already a week and I still want to spend time with that class and Ma'm Ria. Hope everything goes fine with our product trainer and I hope that our trainer is like Ria.

Well, now I've got to adjust once again to my ever changing world. A new chapter has opened and needs a new start. Im still confused to what I will show these guys. Maybe they need to know me. Maybe, for once, I'll make myself clear.

But maybe now's not the time...

Well, I still got this problem about my NBI clearance and I need to know how to solve that before anything else. That would take my mind of matters I always fail in. Again, yet again, she is too close yet I am too far. Hahahaha...never mind.

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Shit! for Gods sake I JUST GOT PISSED OFF!!! I hate it when one good day comes to a bad ending. yeah...we won but hell I had everything out of my hand...even myself and for that i give myself a pat in the back. Just shut up and do anything you could do to sustain yourself.

Well, its hard to do that!