I have been out of normal circulation in the past few days. My normal thinking is really ceased and my normal abilities seem to float away into nothing. What the hell is happening to me? I am now frequently having headaches when I go back to my house from duty...And by duty I mean another worthless day from the computer shop. Well, it's not all that worthless but it all sums up to fall in the cathegory of "worthless work". My friends say I am getting old at things...DotA being one of them...haha...I'm planning on quitting DotA anyway...but not RF if you're wondering.
Back to the topic of me getting too old...or let's just forget me getting old...I don't want to get old...
Age stinks...
I have been through this stage of frequent headaches, I'm-loosing-my-ability and being-out days three times since I can remember. I really can't figure out why I go through this stages but I know if they are coming but still I can't seem to know what to do. I have never prevented them but, as far as I know, I survived them.
First, when I was going to High School and everyone expects too much of me. For god's sake, I was only top six of my class in elementary but all the pressure is on my shoulder and the worse thing is that I was not using my, or rather 'our', money for my education but that of my relatives and of the government. I had to shift from happy-go-lucky kid to a studious high school student. But, with all that GREAT competition, it didn't pay of that much.
Second, last year only when I was again shifting from the good-studious-great high school student into a delinquent college prat. Haha...napabayaan ko na aking mga clase kasi hindi naman required na pumasok sa lahat ng oras e kaya un...pag napagtripan hindi aatend sa mga boring na clase...well my head did not ache much too often those days but it rather felt uneasy specially when the Exam days come and the surprise recits come your way...Haha...I remember going out to the CR, after the checking of attendance, in a surprise recit day and I didn't come back...buti na lang hindi ako natawag nung araw na un...hehe...
Then now, I want to revert back to that person I was 6 years ago when I was still a good student (the one doing homeworks, projects and the one that studies). I really miss school. I don't know why but I miss being pressured by peers and teachers alike. I am now thinking of my next step and that makes my head surge with pain...talagang pag hindi nagagamit ng matagal sumasakit noh?...but I can't blame anyone for my status nowadays...hehe...It's not anybody's fault, is it? It really doesn't matter anymore for it has passed...or I hope it did...
Another change and my head will explode...I just hope I stay in my current state of mind so that no more blood stricken pain exhales both in my physical and emotional states...
I'm just glad these attacks never happen suddenly...
A new start, a new beginning and a new outlook for the future is all that I need for my to move on...maybe I've got it already...hehe...
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Cognitive Funtioning is the normal way that one's mind moves or thinks depending on his mental history and habits. A sudden change in one's cognitive function (an improvement or downfall) may be a sign for a mental illness. One of the most obvious symptoms is frequent head aches.
Examples: An accountant for 5 years suddenly looses his ability to compute simple mathematical problem. A person with a not-so-great educational background suddenly becomes a genius. A DotA addict becomes banban for no reason at all (tumatanda na daw ^_^).
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"Sumasakin na ulo ko". At least this one's done on purpose!
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I'm not implying that I'm going crazy because really I am!
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